Prayer

Some of you know that I, like my good friend Patricio Downing, is currently without a "full-time" job.  Stressful in a time where there are a lot of people without jobs in our area?  Yes it is!  Are we panicking?  No we are not!  We are not panicking cause we both feel like there is a reason and a "plan" for what we are supposed to be doing.

Keeping my options open I am trying to pray everyday for guidance or a path to follow.  I know that people very often will get written off for saying, "I am just going to pray about it and let The Lord take care of everything else."  I for one am not like that.  I like to take advantage of the opportunity that The Lord has given me and also in the same sense pray about more possibilities.  I fell like praying can do but so much!  Before some people start to criticize me for what I am saying, hear me out.

I feel like The Lord has given us free will to choose what we want, that I feel is the whole basis behind why God allows certain things to happen to people.  Does God want those things to happen?  No.  Could God stop those things from happening?  In a millisecond.  Because our world is inherently evil and we are broken people.  We have to choose the path that lies before us.  For me in my case.  I, with a passion, am pursuing two different careers at the same time.  

First being my contracting company.   (Warning to all, shameless plug approaching.  I need more and more work, I can do a lot of things concerning building or designing.  If you know of anyone that needs work done, please email me at john.enzor@gmail.com.)  I have big ideas for the company that my wife and I are forming.  Global things.

The second passion is music.  I am currently in a band, Silver.  We are currently not performing so that we can write new songs and record them hopefully in December.  I love playing music with the two guys that I am in Silver with and would hope that this is the "plan" The Lord has for my life in the near future.  I also play at Visio Dei, and The Summit Church and also with a good group called The Shelly Moore Band.  This is a passion in my life that I also have big ideas for.  Global things.

With both of these things the only thing I can do to make sense and make sure that my own desires are not the driving forces behind them, is to Pray.  I ask God to open and close doors everyday.  Some days are more clear than others.  However the one thing I am not doing after I pray is sit on my tail and wait.  I know that I am going to make some bad choices and I know that I am only human and the path is not going to be as clear or easy.  But I trust that through prayer the mistakes are kept to a minimum.  

Sorry for the long post, I had a good Journey Group meeting this morning and wanted to share with you all.

Head Hurt?

So, today I woke up like any other day and was getting ready for work.  Thinking about how I could make myself, since I am the whole company, more efficient.  So I was sitting down on the coach and my wife had just left, the side of my head starting hurting.  Which this reminds me of a joke that my dad always says when I tell him my head is hurting, "Is your face hurting, hurts me to look at it"  loving dad huh?  Anyway, back to today.  My head starting hurting and when I was about to get up it just felt like someone had hit me in the side of the head with a hammer, and yes I know how that feels.  Well this was a migraine coming on, I took some medicine and feel asleep for a few hours and woke up in the early afternoon.  Needless to say I was not very efficient today at work.

This brought me to a thought tonight of how frail life is and how our "plans" sometimes do not work out.  A good friend of mine, which most of you will know who is reading this, a few weeks back was getting ready for his twins to be born.  Going through all of the motions; painting the nursery, going to birthing classes, going to baby showers, all of that stuff.  Then after a routine exam the doctor tells him that his wife is going into labor at like 27 weeks.  Well this story has a good ending and the babies and parents are doing well.  I just have realized that our plans are never our plans.  We even should stop asking people what their plans are and start asking them, "what do you hope to do in the near future?"  Cause you never know what may happen.  Now some people may look at this blog and think that I am depressed and I have not hope in life.  In fact it is the exact opposite, I have great hope in life and I am not depressed.  I have hope that what ever happens it is my Lord's will for my life.  I have the comfort knowing that I have a great family, awesome friends and the most beautiful, caring, funny, and supportive wife anyone could ask for.

So just remember that life is frail but fulfilling if you let it be, that plans are just a suggestion what you hope to do, and most of all if you find love in something or someone make sure you cherish it cause it could be gone in a second.